Magic in the making
Beginning this process has been a whirlwind of a lot of things to say the least, but most of all, it’s been a series of magical moments that have kept me moving forward. It’s like every few days, something so out of the blue and magical would happen, that I would think, “Ok, there is no way God/The Universe/Whatever isn’t screaming YASSS QUEEN from the nosebleeds!
One such experience happened to me while I was on an overnight trip visiting a good friend, Shannon, in Springfield, MO. I very much wanted to visit her, but I also had anxiety because this trip was 3 days after I lost my job, and I was suddenly thinking about gas money, food money, and in general, I felt like I was on a ticking clock to hurry and bring my ideas to fruition.
A couple weeks prior, I had visited my brother and sister in law in Phoenix, and we took a road trip to Bisbee, AZ. HIGHLY recommend. Bisbee is one of the coolest towns I’ve ever been to. My SIL and I love thrift shopping and antiques, so we did a little of that while there, and I bought a beautiful stained glass window pane on a gold chain that I thought would be perfect for a design project I’m doing in my hallway. This is important, and I’ll come back to it.
While in Springfield, I talked to Shannon a lot about my plans and ideas, we thrifted a lot, and that evening, I took a little gummy because I felt like giggling while re-watching White Lotus so Shannon and her husband could catch up on Season 3. This is a mistake for me if I’m even slightly worried about something, because all my paranoid delusions start to bubble up. LOL.
As I was going to bed at Shannon’s that night, some of my fears were popping up around putting myself out there, being vulnerable, and really sticking out this new venture, trusting that it will unfold as needed. Strangely, suddenly my friend Madison popped into my mind as if she and I were having a conversation. The vision that popped in my mind was me telling her all about my plans, and she was absolutely screaming with joy- the YASSS QUEEN moment, if you will. And then I envisioned myself telling her, “Never mind, I don’t think I can do it.” It looked like a golden cloud of energy over her deflated, and she looked so disappointed- not in me, but in the fact that I was letting this golden cloud float away when it’s here just for me. In that moment, I actually thought to myself, “Oh, I cannot let Madison down!”
Mind you, I had not talked to Madison in literal months save the occasional TikTok exchange. She is very spiritual like me, so I noted that one day, I’d tell her about this strange little vision.
Well, the next day on my drive home, I was thinking about it again and decided, what the hell? I’ll just tell her. I sent her a voice note as I love to do and told her all about my plans and the vision I’d had of her encouraging me the night before. We yapped back and forth for the rest of my drive and then faded out once I got home.
When I got back to my house, right away, I went to take a picture of that stained glass pane I’d gotten in Bisbee because I wanted to send a picture of it to Shannon after our day of thrifting. When I picked it up, I noticed for the first time, a tiny golden Italian horn charm on the window’s chain. I froze in my tracks. Madison wears a gold Italian horn necklace and she never takes it off.
I think I just stood there with my jaw on the floor for at least a minute. I could not believe that I had not noticed the charm in the weeks I’d had the pane. And I could not believe that I’d had this waking vision of Madison specifically cheering me on, and then told her about it, only to find this charm that represents her just minutes after. It was truly one of those moments where I just knew there’s something floating in the ether. Of course, Madison was just as shook as I was. She told me to take it off and wear it, but I think I’m going to leave it on the pane for good luck.
Those kinds of magical moments happen to me all the time, and I know they’re magical because of the feelings that come along with them. I just have to call it a sixth sense. Rarely do they involve other people to the level this example did, so I felt compelled to share. When we take time to simply notice things going on around us, we are often guided to next steps or solutions so much more quickly than we would be if we never stop to look around. If I had decided to stay home and not visit Shannon, I might not have verbalized some of my doubts and fears, I might not have had that moment of visualizing Madison encouraging me, and the Italian horn, when I would eventually inevitably notice it, it wouldn’t have felt the same.
We usually really don’t know the reasons why that gentle little nudge inside us encourages us to do the irrational thing. The productive thing would have been for me to stay home and work that weekend, but the intuitive part of me sent me on my way for a brain break and some friend time, and the result was a fresh wave of synchronous encouragement that further affirmed that I’m on the right path.
Until next time!
